Body Image? Confidence?

If you know me personally, you would know that I have a lot of issues with my body. I am not thin but neither am I obese. I am sort of in the middle? Maybe? Just quite meaty but definitely not obese. But my guy friends would always make fun of me and say stuff like I should consider slimming down (or they might drop hints every now and then).

I do not have a lot of confidence in myself and I am also not happy about my body. I am one of those girls who stares at pictures of other really skinny girls and wish I could be as thin as them. However, I have never took drastic measures to slim down. Just because I really love my food! But starting this year, I got really affected by such comments, and am taking tiny steps to achieving my ideal weight and size.

I am sick and tired of hearing others comment about my body or how fat I am compared to the other singaporean girls around. So I have started exercising (sort of) and watching what I eat and I hope I would stop gaining weight.

Since I am talking about my issues with my body, I thought I would just share something I read with you guys. Not too long ago, I read Fashionpirates' post on how she changed herself because what she saw in the mirror wasn't what she imagined herself to be and I admire her courage to do so. She made herself different because she didn't like the idea of normal because normal is really being an average person that does not take any chances, etc.

So what does this have to do with body image?
Well though I admire her courage to change, to take chances; and to a certain extent wish I could be like her, I still want to try to achieve that ideal body weight that I have in my head.

I do not want to be like some skinny bitch. I mean come on lets get real here; I love my food and I am not very sporty. but I would at least want to be less meaty than I am now, to increase my self-confidence. I want to be able to feel confident of myself and I don't think I can do that if I am not confident of my body.



Sorry, if any of this doesn't make sense to you. It might be me ranting but I am trying to make sense of what I want myself to be like.